Crisis of Faith

I’m so torn. Torn between my faith and my deep desire to show grace and love to others, and my human hatred for the state of our world.

I am angry at those who don’t stand for our anthem, in my mind disrespecting those who fought for their very right to do so. In fact protesting the very men and women who selflessly ran towards the gunfire in Las Vegas to save others. The same men and women who provide security for these players as they play a game.

I also recognize that I have never and will never experience prejudice and therefore have no way to understand what they are protesting against. In my mind it’s simple, the lord tells us to respect those in authority over us, the government or police, and leave it to him to settle any injustices.

In my life I have found that if I treat others with respect they afford that same respect to me. It’s hard to fathom that it’s not that way for everyone.

We live in one of the greatest countries on earth, but we live in some dangerous times. We live in a time where good is evil and evil is good. We live in a time where the rights of others seem to be more important than our own. We live in a time where we can be persecuted for our faith. My faith tells me that certain things are sins, yet I am expected to accept these things or be judged as a bigot.

I believe we are all just trying to do the best we can on this earth. Who am I to judge anyone else for their sins for we are all sinners. Yet who are you to tell me that I must put my morals/faith aside to please you? Why are your rights more important than mine?

Does anyone else notice that once enough people have an idea it becomes socially acceptable? Yet many of these new “norms” aren’t in agreement with God’s law.

Shouldn’t my rights and the rights of my children be just as important as the rights of others?

Having said that, I will continue to treat others with respect and love, and continue to pray for guidance.

I will continue to stand for our flag, I will continue to express my faith. I will continue to strive daily to show love and grace to everyone regardless of their sins, because the lord knows I am a sinner and it’s not my place to judge anyone.